This summer has been a major healing time for me and will continue to be into the fall (at least!!!). It's time to for healing and time to move on. It's time to fix what has been broken for too long. Something inside of me has been wrong for a very long time, and it's time to make it right. Its time to find a way back to where I belong. There is the huge wave crashing over me and the only thing I can do is surrender. It feels like chaos but somehow I know its right. It's so hard to surrender to what I can't see, but I know that i'm giving in to something heavenly.
This is going to be a huge milestone. A time to begin again. Reevaluate who I really am. It's time to face up and clean out this old house. Time to take a breath and let everything out. Everything that i've wanted to say for so many years. It's time to release all my held back tears.
It's not very fun, but it has to be done. I'm sitting here wondering why. Sometimes the truth ain't easy to find. I want to know all the answers But I'm learning that these things take time. Is it easier to doubt or harder to believe?
Sometimes I just wish we could say all the things that are easy to hear. But I'd rather speak honestly and wear a tattered heart on my sleeve 'Cause in the middle of my broken dreams, I know your redemption is here. I don't have every answer in life But I'm trusting You one day at a time, this is the only way my weary heart can even stay alive.
I think its time to find a better way to live my life than living in my security blanket of fear. I NEED stop loving the things that have left me so bruised, all the things that have made me so confused. I think it's time to write a better chapter of my life and leave those things that have kept me wrapped up so tight.
I just need a place to lay my head and Forget the chain that hangs around my neck. These guns are not as heavy as the heart that they defend, but I can't wait to get back home where I can find some rest. I want to lay down my guns and lift up my hands, surrender to love and just LIVE again. I want this desert to reach it's end where my new life begins again.
I have seen the devil in this place, this is where I lost myself and dug my own grave. When you're this far from Heaven, It's hard to keep the faith... I'm barely holding on. And I'm laying down these burdens, Taking off the weights. And I can't count the miles that I've walked to find my way To lay down these guns. Oh how I need to lay down these guns.
How I want to lay down my guns and lift up my hands surrender to your love and just live again. I wanna reach the place where this new life begins. I'll abandon my defenses and all that I fear. I'm trusting you and giving in... it's time to live to love again.
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